folie á deux

(foli•a•dø)

a beautiful delusion made for 2.

we keep forcing this shit 2 work knowing that it never will,

two heads are better than one and we just love the fucking idea

delusion lies within the both of us living in fantasies and denying what’s real…

we are friends that shouldn’t have fallen in love,

but we did out of convenience

you convinced yourself that i was the best thing you never knew you needed

and every time you tell me you love me i know that you mean it

but i know that it would break your heart if i told you

i just don’t believe it…

i am all of nothing, but everything that you’ve expected me to be

i love hard and i’ve dealt with plenty of people abandoning me

and in return, life keeps testing me

teasing me with the love i require

and

never receiving it

has only set my heart on F I R E

and now this broken person is someone

that your heart desires?

one thing i hate is a liar…

i didn’t tell you my secrets just for you to fall in love with my remaining mystery

i can’t risk losing you and potentially making you a memory

i don’t want to leave you deserted or have you craving my love for centuries

i don’t want to abandon you and create another enemy

you deserve someone that would love you the way that you need to be

and i love you enough to tell you that it isn’t me…

but while i’m here…

i will feed into your fantasies of me

whatever they may be

i will be whoever you need me to be

effortlessly

i will pick you apart

and assemble you back together so easily

convincing you that you just might have needed me…

attached at the hip, you’ll never think of leaving me

it’s just that easy with me

and you fucked around n found out

and got caught up in a vibe from an artist unlike any kind

is that the reason why i never leave your mind?

you text me throughout your day with hallucinations

and i’m feeding into these false possibilities with more rumination

thinking of stupid shit like relations and wondering how your pussy’s tasting

i was thinking that we could seize this moment and make it ours for the taking

but leave your strings at home

there’s no attachments in this placement

you wasted your time with them niggas

after discovering they were basic

but you and i will never be

and it’s time that we face it…

reality is adjacent to our facade

and you’ve placed your bets on me defying all odds

and i don’t blame you for that

maybe it’s just me…

but because i love you the way i do

i have to set you free.