D3N1AL/REDIAL
i’m in an ugly stage
i’m finding myself pursuing you with rage
i feel like you’ve denied my love
and thoughts of that has my mind enslaved
‘cause that really means you’re denying me
and after fuckin’ wit a nigga like me
ain’t no way that can be
i’m not going for it
and you’ll see...
what’s it to me?
something, if not everything...
you shouldn’t have meant it
when you said those things
cause now i’m seeing things
and feeling emotions
all of which you painted
tell me why you taste so good
and you’re this fucking tainted
i’m stalling again...
i thought about calling again
after that 1st time you sent me to voicemail
persistence should be a virtue
with this devil on my shoulder
i know i won’t fail
wish me well.
’cause i’m going to need it.
i'm going through hell to get to heaven without you
i know i’ll reach it.
but you’re so heavenly...
how could it be?
you really ain’t choose her over me.
what was wrong with me?
a lot of questions linger on my mind
my love
and i feel like you’ve denied my love
and that can’t be
i’m in denial
you see
there’s no way you loved me
this ugly
you really think you done with me?
you’ve must’ve mistaken me
for one of them bitches that ain’t me
call me crazy
but i won’t let you replace me
you gon have to chase me
as quickly as i hit redial
my love is too good for you to be in denial
you gon have to see trial
i’m in denial and i won’t accept it
next time i call don’t decline
just accept it
you know the saying fools rush in
this fool in love with you dials 10
and uses your name to fill in these blank spaces
in every single notebook on these wide ruled pages
i miss the way you moaned my name
i miss your love faces
these women get so creative
and crafty with their lies
they decorate themselves with red lipstick
a masterpiece in disguise
my last day of May Gemini
my angel
you stooped so low
you have the persona of my favorite poet
Maya Angelou...
how you show me all this love and then just let me go?
and if i never ask these questions now how will i ever know?
why you left on that cold February day
the ink in my pen
writes loves letters to you everyday
times keeps passing
and the ink never fades away
how could you ever deny a love that was never shaded gray?
i’m that fool in love with you that’ll dial 10 just to say
i don’t need you in my life as my lover
i want you around anyway...