you’re so vain...

an addiction you are, 

i feel you in every one of my veins. 

was it all in vain?

one dose of you and

i was never the same

untamed.

whenever you came...

it rained

storms of raging thunder

with strikes from

lighting bolts as bright as your smile

you fill me with curiosity

as if i’m a child

my favorite girl

you were worth the while

won’t you stay a little while, child...

life without you seemed hard to manage

i was hurt before you,

but losing you could do more damage

what good harm is there for the misunderstood?

all those wishes and prayers failed me

i’m still no good

i’m notorious 4

giving away the love that i know i need

my heart’s in a catastrophe

i know it’s toxic

i don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me

i often wonder... 

how’d i let you become the reason...

why

i don’t do drugs the same

there’s nothing that compares to the feeling that you gave

i lose my mind in these clouds

and get to thinking of all those days and times

of intimate moments we would spend together

what a great haze

 

i knew i had you 

rain or shine 

guaranteed

and that was in any weather

especially that May weather

you must be Mayweather 

the way you knocked me out

like the sweetest hit in my veins

my adrenaline bae 

one dose of you

and i was never the same  

you rushed right through my veins 

—

one dose wasn’t enough for me 

and you knew that as you filled every prescription i gave

who are you?

and

who gave you permission to love me this way?

i can’t even look you in your eyes and complete my sentences without turning away

everything about you is too good to be true

there isn’t an ocean on this Earth

as deep as you

drown me in every drop of you

i’m some sort of fiend now

look at what your love can do...

or we could

look at what your love has done

why am i this young proclaiming that i’ve

encountered the “one”?

my euphoria 

you brought the sun with you whenever you came in 

you are the remedy that releases every emotion i held in

i just wanna feel you

your good

your bad

and your ugly 

i’m a fiend for your love

you’re not God either

so don’t judge me 

you’re so vain

it’s ugly

adrenaline in my veins

my druggy 

say you love me...