right?

dear God,

they said your name is love,

so maybe i’m looking for you... 

and

i won’t stop until you pursue me

i’m over love

because lies have ruined me.... 

i’m convinced i’m insane

i keep trying the same things

that i know have failed me before

and they’ll only fail me again

but somewhere deep down 

i believe i’ll find you again...

that moment of peace when everything felt safe

the times where i felt cherished enough not to be replaced

the moment when i was able to gaze upon a pair of beautiful brown eyes on a beautiful black face

you were my escape...

from everything that ever tortured or haunted me

my remedy for every raging demon my soul is harboring

you’ve got to be...

the one that i need...

life has left me with sorrow and 

with a love that’s only make believe. 

God, 

i need you to relieve me

i know i’m a difficult person to deal with

but loving me should me easy...

right?