let her go

will i regret it?

my pain and trauma taunts me

from living free and full

but yet you’re so full of life 

so live

without me if you will

i have dead wounds that need to heal

i’ve been a distraught mess

and all i do is feel 

i could fuck with you right now

and then begin to question if it’s really real

trauma is real

and my scars have nothing to do with you 

but i want to love you 

if you’ll allow me to

but not yet

i’m not quite ready

if we were to put this on hold

would you swear to never forget me? 

forget me. 

please. 

i don’t need you waiting for me

my vision is quite jaded you see 

i want to love you

but it’s very little left inside of me

and i need it this time...

you shouldn’t have to pay for what others have taken for granted 

so i won’t make you

but to be committed it takes two...

i’m only focused on one...

i can’t tell if it’s me or her yet

but i just know you’re not the one...

i want to hurt

nor the one i want to neglect 

but if she ever were to come back to me

i would do what you expect...