GYPSY TOO…

2 of 2. 


this is for you. 

i shouldn’t have ran away from you

but that’s what that pride mixed with fear can do

but didn’t you run away from me too? 

out of fear that i am still what’s best for you?


after all these years

of separation 

i grew into desperation

of being understood

and it led me into hearts of other women 

and they still couldn’t do what you could


you protected me from myself 

and i owe you credit for that

you loved me when it was clearly out of grasp 

i’ll always cherish and respect you for that fact


how many years are we into this shit?

that doesn’t matter ‘cause we have a lifetime to go

i made you a promise that we’ll be best-friends forever

i’ll follow you wherever you go


this is for that part of me.

that was bigger than life itself

that had me giving myself out relentlessly until there was nothing left 

not one ounce of

love

joy 

or strength 

for the lover i would’ve given my life for

that had me hellbent. 

you sent me.


i dove deep into your pain

as if it were the heart of the streets 

i would’ve taken the battery out of my heart

so yours would keep a steady beat

any demon that faced you with me on your side

immediately knew defeat 

there was not one battle you would win without me

how dynamic is that? 

you let me love you until your damage threw us off track. 

derailing. 

you deranged me.

you changed me. 

but i’ll still love you forever

this shit is crazy. 


the passion 

the pain

the scars

the trauma

they’re all still there

i’m running

i’m racing

i’m pacing

trying to outrun you

and i’m out of time to spare

i have no choice but to keep running to my death

and that’s unfair.


where’s my savior in my time of despair? 

weren’t we a pair?

or were we just damaged souls

that were aged already when we met?

we had no chance of growing old in this heartless cold. 

giving up now is something i can’t move past to regret.


this is for the heart of me

that captured my soul

effortlessly

you did exactly what was needed to be done

to rescue me...

are you my destiny?


you are the only one i know for certain that i will always want next to me

you comforted me

caressed me in ways i’d never be able to imagine 

you were supposed to be my new chapter in this love shit

but your past happened...


i won’t argue with you for following your heart

but what about the heart that you healed and tore

right back apart?


you convinced me of my own worth

when they stripped it from me

i went to pick up those broken pieces from my mirror

and they all left deep cuts, as you can see...

but you? 

you aided me when i never asked you to

you seen the rain clouds posted up above me

and prophesied blue

and a vibrant yellow sun i’d never be able to fathom 

without the scales being removed from my eyes...

you were the woman i was meant to be with in the meantime. 


do you believe time? 

the audacity of that bitch that said she was on our side

how could i ever believe in such facades 

that causes worlds to collide

and crash

and burn

into nothingness?


when all i wanted to do was give you my love before it withered away to nothingness... 


i’ve had enough of this.


i’ll never be able to outrun my truth

but these lies would be a little less more convincing to believe without you.

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