i’ve never been good at handling death.
you gon’ have to take me with you.

how am i supposed to forget you

when you left traces of you in every kiss?

why would you think that your presence is something i wouldn’t miss?

don’t you ever think that i willingly let you get me like this...

i fell for it. 

like i fell for you

like you know my love is certain

you see the sky that’s blue? 

my blue skies

turned grey the day you

faded away

memories of you haunt me

not hearing your voice 

or seeing you smile

taunts me

i’d give anything...

to never feel this burden again...

you are every difference in me between now and then 

yet again

i’m reminiscing of everything...

i can’t seem to make sense of anything. 

was it all in my head? 

love has done nothing but misled me

why were you everything you said you’d be?

except for here.

you’re forcing me to live on without you

but

you can’t erase these marks you’ve made

with the permanence of ink

of course i’m still in love with you

what the fuck else did you think? 

we never said goodbye with words

i’ve died one hundred times

hopefully you get the message 

written in between these hidden lines

you’re every stable and fleeing thought

that lingers on my mind

you’ve made yourself as good as dead 

and you’re dead wrong, girl. 

what’ve you done with our time?

you were every fantasy i envisioned of attaining

you’re so sublime

one thought of you can put my tormenting thoughts at ease

one thought of you can torture me with ease

i have a love/hate relationship with these emotions 

i’m sea sick from all this motion

you’ve caused too much commotion

i don’t want half of you

i need all of you in this very moment. 

where’s your concern? 

you’ve made me yearn for you 

now i need an urn for you

but

my heart still burns for you...

you and these disappearing acts. 

that’s what them ghosts will do. 

you can find me on the other side waiting for you.