forgiveness ain’t always for the other person

sometimes it’s for you

asking for forgiveness ain’t easy

when it’s your turn to ask you…

forgive me for allowing you 2 believe that you weren’t the sun, the moon, the stars, or the trees

forgive me for not realizing that you too

need room 2 grow and time 2 breathe

forgive me for convincing you that you needed to be someone else’s hero when you needed yourself the most

forgive me for not giving you the credit you deserved

‘cause you got more heart than most

forgive me for making you die to yourself for others turning you into a ghost

forgive me for allowing you to just coast

throughout life like your existence doesn’t matter

forgive me for not shining more light on your gifts

‘cause when you speak from your heart

your own demons start to scatter

forgive me 4 not reminding you that you matter…

forgive me for being too afraid 2 discover

more of who you were before trauma got a hold of you

forgive me for not telling you more often that

i think the world of you

forgive me for convincing you that you needed more than you

forgive me for silencing your voice to make others comfortable in their own destruction

forgive me for allowing you to accept the responsibility of managing everyone else’s dysfunction

forgive me for allowing you to tolerate disrespect from those you love and doing nothing

forgive me for not reminding you that you are here for something

forgive me for not establishing that you are a queen

forgive me for not allowing you to flow fluidly in who you are all the time ‘cause you talk like a king

forgive me for robbing you of your dreams

forgive me for trying to convince you to change

in order to fit into other people’s pictures who didn’t have a frame

forgive me for choosing you to blame

for the things that you went through

when it’s those who should be ashamed

forgive me for hindering you from living up to your name

forgive me for influencing you to be afraid of your own capabilities

forgive me for allowing you to be preyed upon in times when you’ve needed to pray

forgive me for taking so long to find the strength to say

that “you are truly deserving of all of the love that you wish to give away”

i’ll do better.