forgive me
forgiveness ain’t always for the other person
sometimes it’s for you
asking for forgiveness ain’t easy
when it’s your turn to ask you…
forgive me for allowing you 2 believe that you weren’t the sun, the moon, the stars, or the trees
forgive me for not realizing that you too
need room 2 grow and time 2 breathe
forgive me for convincing you that you needed to be someone else’s hero when you needed yourself the most
forgive me for not giving you the credit you deserved
‘cause you got more heart than most
forgive me for making you die to yourself for others turning you into a ghost
forgive me for allowing you to just coast
throughout life like your existence doesn’t matter
forgive me for not shining more light on your gifts
‘cause when you speak from your heart
your own demons start to scatter
forgive me 4 not reminding you that you matter…
forgive me for being too afraid 2 discover
more of who you were before trauma got a hold of you
forgive me for not telling you more often that
i think the world of you
forgive me for convincing you that you needed more than you
forgive me for silencing your voice to make others comfortable in their own destruction
forgive me for allowing you to accept the responsibility of managing everyone else’s dysfunction
forgive me for allowing you to tolerate disrespect from those you love and doing nothing
forgive me for not reminding you that you are here for something
forgive me for not establishing that you are a queen
forgive me for not allowing you to flow fluidly in who you are all the time ‘cause you talk like a king
forgive me for robbing you of your dreams
forgive me for trying to convince you to change
in order to fit into other people’s pictures who didn’t have a frame
forgive me for choosing you to blame
for the things that you went through
when it’s those who should be ashamed
forgive me for hindering you from living up to your name
forgive me for influencing you to be afraid of your own capabilities
forgive me for allowing you to be preyed upon in times when you’ve needed to pray
forgive me for taking so long to find the strength to say
that “you are truly deserving of all of the love that you wish to give away”
i’ll do better.