i’m in an ugly stage

i’m finding myself pursuing you with rage

i feel like you’ve denied my love

and thoughts of that has my mind enslaved

‘cause that really means you’re denying me

and after fuckin’ wit a nigga like me

ain’t no way that can be

i’m not going for it

and you’ll see...

what’s it to me?

something, if not everything...

you shouldn’t have meant it

when you said those things

cause now i’m seeing things

and feeling emotions 

all of which you painted

tell me why you taste so good

and you’re this fucking tainted

i’m stalling again...

i thought about calling again

after that 1st time you sent me to voicemail

persistence should be a virtue

with this devil on my shoulder

i know i won’t fail

wish me well. 

’cause i’m going to need it.

i'm going through hell to get to heaven without you

i know i’ll reach it.

but you’re so heavenly...

how could it be?

you really ain’t choose her over me.

what was wrong with me?

a lot of questions linger on my mind

my love

and i feel like you’ve denied my love

and that can’t be

i’m in denial 

you see

there’s no way you loved me

this ugly

you really think you done with me?

you’ve must’ve mistaken me

for one of them bitches that ain’t me

call me crazy

but i won’t let you replace me

you gon have to chase me

as quickly as i hit redial

my love is too good for you to be in denial

you gon have to see trial

i’m in denial and i won’t accept it

next time i call don’t decline

just accept it

you know the saying fools rush in

this fool in love with you dials 10

and uses your name to fill in these blank spaces

in every single notebook on these wide ruled pages

i miss the way you moaned my name

i miss your love faces

these women get so creative

and crafty with their lies 

they decorate themselves with red lipstick

a masterpiece in disguise

my last day of May Gemini

my angel

you stooped so low

you have the persona of my favorite poet

Maya Angelou... 

how you show me all this love and then just let me go?

and if i never ask these questions now how will i ever know? 

why you left on that cold February day

the ink in my pen

writes loves letters to you everyday

times keeps passing

and the ink never fades away

how could you ever deny a love that was never shaded gray? 

i’m that fool in love with you that’ll dial 10 just to say

i don’t need you in my life as my lover 

i want you around anyway...