DARK

like my liquor…
like my thoughts…

you had my heart
and all of its pieces
from the start.

like my darkest hour
spending hours
searching for sunlight
lost and clueless
with no direction…

nothing seems to go right.

why’d you seem so right for me?

you never had to make me feel so WORTH IT
then worthless
i’ve been down enough in life
aren’t we all just tryna find our purpose?

what was yours?

was it really to heal
or
destroy me?

i’m a solider of love for love
go ahead
deploy me

i’m the one you want on your team
i stand on all ten of my toes in any weather
you know what that means.

as solid as a rock
as real as they come
how could there ever be
any question that i’m the one?

my sun
you shine so brightly for me
say you’ll be my midnight sun when
my light doesn’t shine so brightly for me

in my darkest hour
where i spend hours
searching for me
…
while i’m penetrating you
tasting your every emotion
was she ever this deep?

allow me to touch those places
you couldn’t reach
allow me to show you the things (that)
you couldn’t see
allow me to be that breath
you couldn't breathe.

allow me to be the only other being outside of God
that can bring you to your knees.

allow me to be your relief
because you need it
allow me to help you release
what you’ve been keeping
…
like ink you’ve stained
unreachable parts of me
undeniably
you deserve all parts of me
the very heart of me…

i promise to never hold back
to love
to hold
to protect
to always have your back

who wouldn’t want a love like that?

a love that would never deny me…
a love that would never try me
or make me feel less than what i’m made of
a love that consistently makes love
instead of creating war
a love that will soothe my aching heart
a love that doesn’t keep score

because in life,
love has been a losing game
each time the 1st round draft pick
gets put to shame

why play with my name?

as if it never held any weight
you said you were ready now
so why wait?

oh no,
don’t tell me the light went out on you
it’s okay
’cause i know just what to do

reassure me
tell me i’m all that you need
although, you love complicating things
you’re still the only one i see….

if it’s space that you’re needing
then so be it
i’ll be right where you left me
you struck me right where it hurt
it’s like my soul left me.

your light may have went out on you,
but i want you to know what’s true.
although, you were the storm i had to weather
there isn’t a grey sky i wouldn’t paint blue for you.

you’re every season
you’re every reason
why i pray to God
under every night sky
you’re every reason why it didn’t work out with them other girls
you made them the easiest goodbye.

don’t fly away from me, butterfly.
not just yet,
you are a rare being that i must protect.

when your light runs out on you
i know just what to do
i’ll be right here where you left me
there isn’t a grey sky i wouldn’t paint blue for you
i’ll protect you if you let me

in the dark is where you’ll find me
and until i find your light again
that’s where i’ll always be
you were more than just a fling
you reignited the light inside of me

i’ll make sure you’ll never forget it
as the reminders lie inside of me

i won’t let these thoughts of you or emotions wither away
no matter how dark the darkness gets
my love is here to stay.