this time i can’t be your escape...

i know i saved you just in time last time, 

but baby, this time it’s too late...

i let it marinate 

but i won’t prolong it 

without you it seems that i’m my strongest

and i’ve waited the longest to feel this feeling again...

how was losing you my greatest win? 

who i am now is a product of your mistakes

you coming to me saying you miss me 

is everything i needed to hear

and now you want another chance

but baby, it’s too late...

you did whatever necessary to destroy me

betrayed my trust

abused my love

fucked my loyalty 

all while showing no mercy

it’s like you never loved me...

how you pleading the fifth

when you KNOW you made this love ugly? 

make this shit make sense...

you left me years before you were long gone

my heart has been filled with suspense 

the thought of me ever coming close to loving that deeply and passionate again 

gets me tense

too many emotions that i can’t condense 

or contain

loving you has done nothing but drive me more insane

and for the first time in a long time

i finally feel sane

without you...

truly nothing was the same

and it will never be

i’m doing better off without you

—

i’m a better me.

you’re dead to me. 

i wish it weren’t this way

you keep bringing up the old me from back in the day

that would’ve taken you back without hesitation

on any cloudy day

but keep in mind,

you’ve done this to yourself

i am the product of your mistakes

leave that shit alone if it becomes more than what you can take...

woe is me. 

i didn’t know how much i could handle

until it became too hot to handle

everything in my life has dismantled 

and fell apart after you

only for better things to come together

so i can gracefully shit on you...

fin.